On the Brink of Death

My cousin finally went for his heart-wrenching operation
to remove his brain hemorrhage
I can't decide if the outcome is good or bad
He looks the same, except weaker and colder
Almost dead
The look on the doctor's face was no comfort,
It was as if even he felt unconfident about him.
What kept him alive?
He's on the edge,
All that needs is for the Reaper to pull him over,
Or for God to call him
My grandma feels ill, so she's going back
I still have to visit him
And we are all constantly monitoring him
But there's a part of me that
Is
Scared
Frustrated
Angry
It's like... there's no hope
What am I going to do
Without him?